e-mail of truth

I recieved an e-mail from my first host family in Germany! They are the Klingelhofers. They seem very nice. Well, as nice as people can seem over e-mail. They gave me so much information about where I'm going to live next year. I thought that this would calm my anxiety a tiny bit, but I seem to be increasingly wrong about stuff like this. That one small e-mail made this whole ordeal snap into perspective. These strangers are going to be my parents. With my mom in the other room, I felt like I was cheating on her. I had to go wash my hands or something, I felt so dirty. However, the Klingelhofers have a daughter going to Brazil in August, so technically they're cheating too. This thought makes me feel a little better. Of course, I informed my YEO, Sandy, about the contact I made. I love Sandy: Her help keeps me sane, which is a ridiculously hard job these days. Struggling through Spanish and German along with my other classes seems so much smaller than the life I'm going to step into. Well I'm going back to my beautiful Friday afternoon of English homework. Auf Wiedersehen!--sjinternational